So lately things here have been going good... I've been working hard in school and doing great... but there are still things that haunt me. I heard this song the other night and it brought back a flood of emotions... But its ok... It shouldn't matter.... SHE is gone now. it was only for a moment that she was a part of my life... But damn it if i can't forget her. and hell if i would want to. I dont know how to make sense of things that happened but sometimes, well sometimes you just need to miss someone... I just hope she misses me too sometimes.

What Hurts The Most
I can take the rain
On the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And I just let ‘em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though goin’ on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain
Of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up, gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it overI would trade, give away
All the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
Not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do