An odd goodbye...

So the day before Valentines day my neighbors trailer caught on fire making it inhabitable... It was a scary night cause in a trailer park fire spreads like Herpes in a highschool. Well anyhow today was the day they had to tear down the trailer. It was really sad for me to watch the walls come down and see it gutted.

Partly cause i feel for what my neighbor lost. but also because i spent a large part of my youth there. I drank with the original neighbors when i was 18 and they were my age, Their girlfriends used to give me dating advice and do my hair. I had my last guy crush in those walls. I remember watching the neighbors and thinking they were so grown up and wanting to be like them. and now i'm their age. and the trailer is coming down.

Friends started families there, nights of laughter took place, many tears were shed. And now it is a skeleton of what once was. I know that the real value is in the moments and memories and not the actual structure, but it will be weird to look out the window and not see the deck i sat on and cried when my first serious girlfriend broke my heart, when another trailer goes up it will be odd knowing that Mike, Holly, John, Dean or Keitha never lived there...

mostly its unsettling to realize how fleeting everything is... How precious the moment really is.

Lord help Charter communications

So we got the internet and cable... Its been a long 3days but i think everything is where it should be... 5 technicians (well 4 but 2 visits from one) and a free month later...

We had nothing but problems getting to this point...

heres the break down...

Day 1
* the modem was installed in the wrong room
* the cable in the bedroom wasnt split to accomodate net access
* they didnt leave a remote for the second cable box (WHAT THE HELL WHO DOES THAT!)
* my LAPTOP was left on the floor by the technicians
* the whole damn thing took 5 and a half freaking hours!
* Showtime on demand refused to work (read: NO SHANE!)

Day 2
* they send another technician out TO FIX OUR INTERNET that wasnt broken
* Still didnt get a remote
* Showtime on demand STILL doesnt work
* spent 2 hours on the phone after the internet crashed and i couldnt watch the L word. I was transferred 11teen times including the the disconnect dept.... I was like DONT TEMPT me Bitch

Day 3
*one more technician...
* an ANGRY call to corporate...
* FINALLY got a remote and a month free...

I dont understand how hard this was gonna be I mean really... a trained monkey could do this... but apparently not a trained contractor... anyhow... On that note I'm gonna go watch the L word on demand... *crosses fingers* PRAY FOR ME

Back on the horse

where to begin. I finally got the internet at home so perhaps i can now begin to blog about the most mundane crap again.

It was a long day at work today puncuated by crazyness. A family came into the studio today with the sweetest 9 month old baby. he was the size of an 18 month old. and laughed and giggled at everyone.

I'm fueding with the bank yet again. I'm so devastated. It felt like we were finally getting ahead and then boom a pile of overdrafts that i swear up and down shouldnt be here. and of course K cant find he reciept to prove that the money should be there. I dont know what to do.

I cant believe that me and k have been together for 11 months. its been a rollercoaster ride. but wow we really have made it. I remember the last time i was in this place, with Chris like 2 years ago. so much has changed and i think about the places i have been and he experiences i have had. It seems so unreal. I dont even know where i would begin to tell the story.

but thats all for now... more to follow...