So here it is… yesterday was my first full day in Minnesota… I spent the whole day unpacking and putting my old room (which is now a toy room) into an acceptable bedroom for two adults… its looking good… Tomorrow K leaves California to come here and we can start our lives together. Being home is such a blessing. I didn’t realize how much I missed my brother (8) and sister (6) and the plethora of friends I have in my life here…

Saturday we came home and ended up out at our usual bar drinking free drinks and singing karokee… Ran into all sorts of old faces there including a newish friend that I have actually known since I was in middle school, in fact she was the girl that tormented me endlessly… Funny how lesbianism will bond people together. I spent a couple beers talking with her girlfriend about the amazement of Chicago and the circumstances that brought me home… also spent some time singing drunken songs with Twinkles and my new mistress… LOL

As always thank you for reading… For awhile most of my postings will be put up by my mom, and written by me at home… Thank you Mommy for allowing me to continue with my creativity and writing…

God Bless This Broken Road.... Or Good Bye Chicago

Last night was amazing... Dancing on the packed dance floor... Throwing shots back with my best friends and basicly living it up with my gay boys... But then came the hard part.... Saying good bye...

Its hard to believe that this is where i ended up and even harder to believe that home is where i am going. I used to question where home was... But now i know that its in my heart, and regardless of whether i am here or there both places will always be home.

The reasons i came to chicago are so overshadowed by now by the people i have met, and mostly in the last year. I am thankful for my little man, and my Slinkster, and my P diddy and my two favorite bookworms, i am thankful for my concieted asshole and old roommate the dictator. I am even thankful for the asshat that led me to all of them....
Its funny how things work out, its funny how life takes turns we never imagined it taking... and how the journey is none the less the most beautiful thing... I am at the point where i cry when i travel familar roads here in chicago... but at the same time i can feel the sand at hidden beach under my toes...

And while perhaps i did have to fall to go home, i would never take back the last two years. I am going home a different woman than i was when i left, and for once in my life it is someone i am proud to be. Thank you Chicago, All of you ment something and i will never forget you and i will be back....

With That.... A special Shout out to Slinkster... I love you and nothing is going to change... stay away from blue liquor... and i'll see you later....

Rascal Flatts - Bless The Broken Road Lyrics

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I should be packing...

Yes i should be packing... I leave on Saturday... But i dont wanna... Leaving is hard for me... But at the same time i cant wait to go home... So anyhow... Perhaps i need to bite the bullet and start loading my belongings into boxes.. Sweet jesus how did this happen... I know that the move is for the best... and my girlfriend will be meeting me in minnesota just a few days after i get there... I will be home for pride and one of my best friends (an ex) is visiting then too...and I will be closer when my god child is born... and spend REAL time with my brother and sister and catch up with old friends from highschool... Its gonna be good... Also... I can get some help i need. I dont know if i have ever talked about it here but i am bipolar and i have aspergers syndrome... Lately things have been spiraling out of control... so i think its time to step back... and get my junk together... I have however found a way where i will keep posting here regularly... In fact i even changed my header cause no longer will i be the lesbian Nanny in chicago... now i will be just me... this move however should provide interesting blog fodder... cause there is so much to be said about going home... LOL

Things that make me go what the hell???

BROKEN CELL PHONES....

I broke yet another cell phone last night.. well the charger anyways... I have 3 weeks until my upgrade and i break my phone NOW what the hell... but i talked to the t mobile customer care guy and he put a note in my account saying my upgrade was acceptable... but the store doesnt have to honor it... and it wont ship to chicago in time... so i might have to wait to have my phone back till i move to MN... *sigh* we shall see on todays adventure to the t-mobile store... I swear i will cry...

LESBIANS DATING MEN....

So the girl that tried to take my girlfriend from me (unsuccessfully i might add) is now dating a man... I am forced to shake my head... He isnt even a cute guy... LOL... so anyhow... what can i say... I am sorry that she got her heart broken... But perhaps she should consider going after single girls rather than ones that have rocking girlfriends like me... what the hell....

I JUST FINISHED UNPACKING....

and now i must start packing... enough said... what the hell...

Going Home...

So recently... (ok today) i decided that i am gonna move back to Minnesota... And get my stuff together.... I havent been posting here as much but lately i have been an emotional wreck. I am unemployed and things have just been spinning out of control.

It is scary the thought of leaving chicago.... but i cant wait to be home in the arms of my friends and family...Its hard to believe that i have only been here two years... I dont know yet where this road will take me.... other than away from the internet... but it will be nice to be traveling fmailar paths...

Thank you to all that have supported me... It means everything....