Feeling Pretty...

First of all HAPPY EASTER... Just got home from Easter dinner with friends at Weber grill... Totally wonderful time... Sometimes I look at myself and find it slightly frightening that I am actually an adult... When I remember so clearly what it was like to be a silly teenager...

But as to the title... I was taking the El home... And there was this cute girl also waiting for the train... And I noticed her then went back to I pod land... Got on the train when it came... And was standing there waiting for my stop (which was only like 3 away) and I glance up and she flashes me this incredible smile... WOW... So at first I thought to myself... NO WAY. I look straight! She's just friendly... But then she got off the train... One stop before me. AND FLASHED ME A HUGE SMILE as she got off the train...

Now I know in reality I will never see this girl again... But it made me feel pretty... Very very pretty.

Sometimes it is the small moments that make life wonderful...

On that note... I'm off to do laundry and other unexciting stuff... Have a wonderful day and don't eat too many Jelly Beans.

Sometimes.... Well yeah... Enough said... Keep reading..

On the telephone line...

I haven't posted for a few days... Just haven't had anything really blog worthy... And I really don't still... And I think I'm ok with that cause it means that life has been calm. Just the usual day to day stuff...

Except the last couple days the phone has been ringing...

Pickles ex called me last night... I missed her... She has always been a wonderful friend and someone I value greatly and it was amazing talking to her again...

Today Casanova called.... Completely out of the blue... And just chattered away like we had talked every day... Threw me off... I didn't expect it... I wish she would decide... Is she gonna be around or not... Instead of just randomly popping up when I am finally ok with her not being here.

I have been talking to an old old friend lately... We shall call her Sunshine... Its amazing how a little bit of time can change two people... I don't know what will happen but I enjoy talking to her and I'm excited that she is moving closer soon...

Anyhow... That's really about it... Nothing too exciting lately...

I live in a shoebox of a world

so... I live in a world the size of a shoe box... My ex's "girlfriend" dated my former fuck buddy... I'm just wondering if she was planning on persuing everyone i've been involved with in chicago... cause if that is the case... I can make her a list... However... If she touches Casanova i might be forced to strangle her.... She only gets the crazzzzzzy ones...

On another note... An old friend came back into my life a few days ago... and well... old habits die hard... Soon she will be living only 3 hours away... this makes me smile...

TODAY! OMG! I almost forgot... I BOUGHT A SWIMSUIT.... and its amazing... and it only cost me 6.99....
and the best part is i did not have to go through the torturous ritual of trying on swimsuits only to reject each one and lower my self esteem again and again... I went into the store to try on one that i saw online and while they did not have that one... they did have this one (ok so its just the top but hell thats what i needed) and it ws last seasons... so it ws marked down from 44.50 to 6.99... Super amazing...

not much to say....

its all swimming around in my head... and i dont know if i want to share...

Casanova... there isnt anything left to say...

Minnesota... Chicago... Its just been life... Somehow even the amusing things dont seem to have much merit...

I do however have a new blog.... Hidden Dreams its pretty simple its just a collection of my writing... though i am still collecting samples.... check it out... you might enjoy it...

Waiting to be attacked...

My frustration with internet communities is mounting higher and higher everyday.... In the last 2 days that I have been home despite dealing with having laryngitis and the stomach flu... There has been "blog drama" I HOWEVER WILL BE AN ADULT AND NOT GO THROWING OUT SITE NAMES OR E-MAIL ADRESSES...

What does it matter if someone checks out someone's blog???? What does it matter if they have mutual friends???? AND WHY DID MY EX"S NEW GIRLFRIEND SUBSCRIBE TO MY MYSPACE BLOG?!?!?!?! (not that I ever blog there now that I have this but really people???)

I posted a blog on myspace... Basically saying... Bad attempt at being a web stalker.... Try reading the right blog... And then I posted this address...

I have barely "talked" to Casanova since I have been home... Perhaps the season for this moment is over... Perhaps we are both just busy... I don't know and I don't want to think about it cause then I get cranky... And I don't like being cranky... Well... Now I have said enough....

Special Shout out to Chris's new girl if your reading this... Thank you for keeping him the hell away from me!
(also new girl.... Could you leave a comment and tell me WHY you are reading my blogs??? I'm curious as hell!)

No Place Like Home

So I'm back. Didja miss me???? Apparently Stinky and Casanova missed me. And now its Minnesota's turn to miss me. This was by far the best trip home in a long time... I got to see a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time... (including my middle school bully who's girlfriend is flipping HOT). Things went ok with my family... And the worst I can say about the trip is that I got a cold and developed laryngitis... Yup... I have no voice...
Highlights of the trip....
As Always.... THE AMERICAN.... All my favorite home town people in one place... Screaming to the I POD with J on the way home... Laughing with Candy all night... Although... For future reference to all the MN crew--- FRIENDS DONT LET FRIENDS DIAL DRUNK! especially not after being at the American for 3 hours!

New Friends: I had the wonderful joy of meeting a couple new people at least one of which will become a wonderful friend (I dub her... Twinkle). Twinkle is one of my best friends (J) new girlfriend. And I have to say after knowing her for almost 7 years now I have never ever ever seen her this happy and positive and wonderful.

I think the best part about being home was ultimately just being there... Sitting around the kitchen table... Rolling in the blazer... Cuddling with my sister and her fat cat Scooter... The same old bars... The same old faces. I missed them. I know that without a doubt Chicago is my home... But so is Minneapolis. The funny thing about this trip is a lot more of it was spent just sitting around and doing nothing. And I loved it. it was nice. I only accomplished 8 of the 13 on my Thursday thirteen... But it was a wonderful trip...

However... Not everything is meant to go smoothly! As I said before I did get a bad cold and spent part of my trip curled up on the couch watching bad movies and cuddling with a box of tissues... I also "broke" my cell phone (the mic went out) so now I have my dad's old cell phone (model is about a year and a half old) but... It works... When I get the pictures e-mailed to me from J I will post them here... Till then...